Sunday, February 26, 2012

24022012

#2011 #Morib #Beach ♥

Hi my friends, 
we used to tell story to each other like the so-called heart talk session between 6 of us.
No doubt, 
we used to hang out together, 
having lunch together, sleep together in 1 room & etc.
Yes, they are the peoples in the photo ♥ 
The friends I used to hang out in my college life in the last few semester.
Honestly, we seldom hang out nowadays, like seldom hang out in 6 peoples. 
Quite hard to make a 6 peoples outing nowadays, how sad. :'(
So, we do cherish every single seconds when we hang out all together.
I spent time with them like there is no more tomorrow. 

24022012 : we had our heart talk session.
Finally, its like.... finally. 
Finally, 
we had the one day to spent our almost whole day with each other. 
Day to night, night to midnight, midnight to morning. 

We talk to each other, 
the story, the secret, the problems.
We not that close, but we are actually close. 
We dont tell every single tiny details to each other.
We dont tell ALL secret to each other. 

But..... 
we tell what we want to tell, 
we ask what we wish to know, 
we stop saying when we dont feel like say,
we dont force, we listen,
we dont cry, but we comfort each other. :')

The day I told my story to them, *tyvm for the every single reply for my story* :')
I asked something straight forward that I never ever did in my life. 
I so shy when I asking the question. :$$
Thanks god that I didn't ruined anything between them and we all after the question. haha I knew secret from them, I feel great just because they are brave enough to tell us their secret & also feel happy because they willing to speak out in this group of friends. 

We wish our friendship never come an end. 
But I knew its hard to talk like this after we graduate, 
we will walk into a new story.
A new story that we cant really predict,
 thats why we appreciate what we having now.
For me, I seldom heart talk to a group of friends. Its hard.
Primary school friends, no more.
Secondary school friends, no more
College, here they are. *after graduate no more too?* 
Best friends are here, 
but I dont heart-talk with them like how I heart-talk with this group. 
So, after graduate..... there will be our end *i think*. 
The different kind of ending. 
Not end the friendship, but end this kind of session in my life. 
*hope its would be different with my expectation. :/

Friends, I really feel glad that I had you guys in my life. :')
I wish there would be more heart-talk-session come to us before we graduate. 
lovechu guys so much. 


Saturday, February 25, 2012

18022012

你离开了,我们一起努力放下吧。
谢谢你 迟来的情人节卡,谢谢你一封勾起我们回忆的一封信
甜蜜的回忆,原来我们都不曾忘记。

因为回忆,所以不想放弃;
因为不想放弃,所以更努力;
努力过后,却得不到想要的;
当真正想要放下的时候,往往 回忆又让我们慢慢的再次恢复不想要的复杂关系~
希望,这次我们能做到。

信里的一句话:
犯贱的我想念犯贱的你!我们都犯贱,但是最后都没有好的结局!那都是因为我们都有“犯贱的爱情故事”。

我想,这次会是我最后一次在blog提起你的事。
那也是我第一次在你面前说ILY,也是唯一一次和最后一次。
而且还是在这种不是情侣的关系之下,你我都有够白目!XD

最后,
谢谢你让我在单身的时候 还能尝尽情侣之间的甜酸苦辣~
谢谢你让我在单身的时候 还有人疼,还有人关心
要谢谢你的其实很多。
最重要的是,谢谢你很努力的让我不后悔曾经爱上你的那段时间。:)
保重了,  





#BIGBANGBLUE
the painful of letting a lover go.

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

Happy Valentine's Day ♥


One of my favorite love song for almost 3 years - Fall for you

"Tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Dont make me change my mind." ____  I hope this would happen! 

Happy Valentine's Day Peoples. ♥ 

Monday, February 13, 2012

你是你么?

明天情人节,单身的我,自然没什么搞作~
不期待,也不曾想过会发生今天早上的事!
今天有课,想着assignments, 七早八早emo去~
结果门铃响了,望了出去~
熟悉的脸孔,熟悉的身形,熟悉的发型~ 
你竟然戏剧化的站在我家门前,有点不敢相信。。。
走了出去,你我一句话都没有对上~ 我就飙泪了~
你拉着我上你的车。。。我们静静的坐着~
我就不停的飙泪,泪洒整个气氛,我哭了几久,你就握着我的手几久。
而我就越哭越悲,哭够了,翻了翻你的车 找tissue, 然后下车 进屋,关了门,你也走了!
从头到尾,很莫名其妙。。。
我哭的时候,竟然不是完全想着你;而是想着assignments, stresss! 
我哭的时候,你就还是好像以前那样;静静的握着我的手,一句话都不说,让我哭过就好!
我哭的时候,你也是会默默落泪;从以前到现在,你都以为我没发现!
哭哭哭!:( 难道你就特地来看我哭的么?奇奇怪怪!
你怪,我也怪~ 明明没联络了,你却突然来个“怪惊喜”!
每次你都不是让我emo的原因,可是就不知道为什么,每次emo的时候,就一定会想起你!
想下想下,你就好像我的解药~ 哭过了又重新振作!


我们都不是谁的谁,现在连朋友都不是。
从我认识你以来的第四个情人节都快到了,而我们都在每个情人节里纠缠不清!
你我都累了~ 我们,都放手吧!放开友情,放开任何我们之间的感情~
你过你的生活,我过我的生活。。。
终有一天,但不是今天,我一定不会在blog提起你的事~! :)
唯一让我不解的是,今天你来的目的是?难道你也失去了方向?-.-

又是时候跟assignments搏杀了!D:

Sunday, February 12, 2012

失去了自我


我的世界是彩色的,往往我那彩色的世界背后都会有黑白的时候。。
2012年才过了一个月,以为会是一个新的开始,结果几乎天天都emo!
正所谓 “天有不测之风云,人有开心伤心。”
天天都要用笑脸来隐藏那哭弯了的笑容,哭弯了的笑容惟有在特定的时候消失~
真的觉得自己有点像垃圾。
亲情,有时候让我透不过气来~
友情,爱情。。。。有时都不知到底是什么东东~

我对待不同的人有不同的性格;
我有时候很神经,有时候很正经;
我会因为别人一句话伤心很久,但不会被发现;
睡觉是我唯一的解脱,睡着了,不悲不气不孤单~ 什么都感觉不到。
“逃避” 成了我现在常做的事情。

有时候真的不知道自己到底要怎样,要什么。。。
就连现在手指敲打着键盘打着这一篇文章的目的是什么 都不知道。
其实不知道要说些什么,从头开始。。。想到什么就写什么。
就只是想写出一堆心里的话。。。
写了出来都会舒服很多,但是这种感觉不能维持很久~ 但至少能让我觉得好一些!
就像星期五那天,有个朋友 很突然的给了我们一人一张小纸张,还以为是要玩小游戏~
哪知,原来他是要大家一起写“自己不开心/不想要的事情”,把事情都写在纸张上!
他们都写了很长,至少比我那六个字来得长~~~ 写完后,把纸张撕碎然后丢掉!
果然,大家的心情都好点了~ :) 我也不例外,不错的一个发泄方式,就像我写blog酱。
谢谢他们让我开心半天!

自己其实
很想 努力的放下懒惰,很想努力的奋斗,很想努力的知道自己想要的是什么,
很想很想改变自己。
但是 就是感觉很力不从心!
对自己真的真的很没有信心,各方面的信心都不知道藏去哪里了~

发呆的程度也变严重了,
越来越多人 发现我很爱在车上时, 很喜欢望着窗外。。然后静静的!
然后自己开始发呆起来。。。慢慢的自己的脑海会慢慢想起各种问题!
会想起人,事,物!

而你,本想要自私的留住你的脚步,最后却只锁住了自己的心。
谢谢你不曾让我伤心难过哭到崩溃,
很矛盾的是 :谢谢你让我因为你的离开流了不少 “不舍的眼泪”!
谢谢你,让我觉得你是特别的,也让我觉得我其实 很烂!!!
但至少思念你,让我知道自己并还没烂得彻底~
思念你其实不痛苦,你的事对我不大影响。。。
就让我继续写有关你的事,慢慢的让自己忘了你和我不再是以前的关系~ :)

心里的话,很没有次序的在心里蹦蹦跳跳,所以也很没有次序的在这篇文章东奔西跳的写出来。你看,我真的很没有方向!

指南针,请指引我方向。


Saturday, February 11, 2012

Gathering.

The very first secondary classmates gathering was on 2 years ago. The time after we ended our SPM exam. Not the whole class, but its our memories toooo! Hope there are no one forget about this gathering! :'(


After the first gathering I attended, my second gathering with them was two years+ after that. :')
Finally, I managed to join their gathering! 
Its like the only-girl-gathering! Anyway, I dont tell grandmother story about these gathering! hahahah.

Kelly house gathering @ last year December :

Padi House "Gathering Dinner + LiMei's Bday Celebration" @ Jan 2012 :

Chinese New Year's Gathering.
Kelly's House :

XiangMei's House :

I miss the old time! 
I love how we took our group photo, its a fun session.
look back those candid shoot, its make me feel so emo, *wanna back to old time seriously*
Hope we can have more more more and more gathering in future time.
Misschu all so much! :* goodnight.

Monday, February 6, 2012

Chap Goh Mei.


Happy Chap Goh Mei : Last day of Chinese New Year : Chinese version of Valentine's Day.
The main highlights of Chap Goh Mei is for those who are single, they will write their names and contacts on the mandarin oranges, which are then thrown into a river, lake or pond in hope of finding ones future partner. Sound interesting? Wanna be the special mandarin oranges you might try some special fruits like durian, watermelon and so on! hahahah! Just joke. :p

Last but not least, 
HAPPY CHAP GOH MEI! :D
Left 3 more hours to get CNY angpaooooo!! 
goodbye 2012 CNY!


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